world of my own

The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood,
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
two roads diverged in a wood, and I --
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Friday, July 13, 2007

today we had the challenge of facing the school, our friends, our teachers. what do we say to them when they asked how our competition is. but for me, the biggest challenge was faced yesterday when we all stood at the awards ceremony to see the medals being given out to our competitors. having to stand through it all, hold our heads high and congratulate the winners. it was tough but we made it through in the end. and i never saw a stronger girls team then... they swept their disappointment aside and stood brave in front of all the other schools.

the auntie at the drinks stall heard abt it ytd evening. she asked 有没有赢？and we said no. she was disappointed but she quickly added, 不用紧，尽力就好. my friends basically said more or less the same thing. even though they never truly will know what we went through, but their faith in that we had done our best was comforting.

i think the post on the guys' blog basically said quite a lot of what i felt... but one thing i would like to add is that, we've tried. we've really tried to change the circumstances, but they remain as such. so what could we do? we took what we had, we gave in our all and just believed that it would be enough. as long as we didn't hold anything back. as long as every trng we gave it our best shot. we couldn't have more water trngs, so we did other stuff... we tried to capitalize on our strengths. no we cannot alter what is fixed and set in solid gold by law, we could only believe and work our way around it.

we poured our heart and soul into it, but i guess it just isn't our time and other schls were better in those 3 days. but im more or less okay with that now. i think like what my teamates have said, it all happens for a reason. He probably has something to tell us, some lesson for us to learn. and in the past 3 days it seems to me that all of us have grown stronger.

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went to watch gym comp. perhaps just so as to avoid staying at home with nth to do. i can't bring myself to touch my work yet. seems as if i've left part of me behind. some part of me still can't fully grasp the fact that our season has ended. how do you just walk away frm smth that has occupied ur thoughts almost 24/7 for the past 18 mths? how do u suddenly just say goodbye to ur boat, ur paddle, the water, ur dreams... life will be pretty empty for a while before i gather myself back into focus.

even if i had known the end result will be thus, i wld still have dreamed. i wld still have believed in that dream. i wld still have done as much or more... even if the result was the same.

thank you bloody mary
and thank You for giving me this team, jiaolian and this 1 and a half years in raffles canoeing.

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joo spoke
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