world of my own

The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood,
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
two roads diverged in a wood, and I --
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

*loves *

the colour orange
the sky and the water (:

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

was tired from lack of sleep ytd. and always on weds after lunch i just wanna degen and die somewhere... but today i slept for almost an hour on the small hard canteen bench. thanks friends for the jacket n for staying till i woke up. (:

at the traffic light, i suddenly had this urge to rush down to my boat and start rowing.

2km was okay. not pb but if i keep rowing like this ill hit pb soon. (: 2nd 2km was like quite crap cause i kinda gave up... only at the last 500m then i thought to myself, wth im sure i row this crap timing and then i really start to chiong. hm.. i guess one thing to take away from this is no matter how much lactic i feel n no matter how much my arms/legs/back wanna die, i still must do my best for each row. cause nats is at least 2 rows in one day... so yah, must be prepared for that.

500ms. need to work on end burst. somehow at the last 4 buoys when i try to up frequency my strokes get screwed up... so have to find out why and work on it... i rmb a few rows that were really good so just have to recapture that.

today's water was cool. there was one point in time i felt as if i was one of the characters in 'this is the sea'. the water was that choppy... and then when we finished the last 500m, yang turned to me n said.. u wanna do another one? haha. really reminded me of that huge grin on the kayakers face when they take on another huge wave. that kind of maniacal grin in conquering something thats so challenging and fun...

but for the last 500m lost focus, got hit by wash and ended up 2 buoys on yang's right instead of on her left... -.-"

and i rmb the promise i made myself. no matter wad happens im not gg to let water trng get me down anymore. with so little time left, theres no point getting upset.... wads more impt is to find out wads wrong n go abt changing it.

i think i became really happy after break today... after i heard abt boat 20's row. just very very happy for them. and once again its proof that if you put in the hard work, n u believe n u refuse to give up... u will get results. (: and i just had this vision of all the rjc boats going super fast on the water. (:

everyone in the team has been my inspiration. each and everyone of them has in some way or another contributed to where i am and what i believe in now. all the k1s, the k2s, the ts... not only frm the comps, but frm what they say, what they promise themselves, their strength.

"and as we let our own light shine, we unconciously give others permission to do the same"

they all emit some kind of glow.

and of course the j1s have contributed too... seeing how much they push themselves, what they row for, all their hard work. (:

i guess another happy thing today was the row itself. even though wind abit strong, waves abit big, sun a bit bright, but there was a point in time where it was as if the heavens opened up above macritchie and golden light just shot down in shafts... and it was so beautiful. n also cause today it wasn't so overpopulated...

after wo, i really want to get my strokes right. because thats the nature of the sport. canoeing is simple really... all there is to learn is the strokes... and i wanna get it right because i wanna do justice to the sport... but then also i wanna get stronger. so that ill have the strength to do better in rowing... so that i can do justice to the sport... huh.. its interelated... and i will not be satisfied without either.

and yes, my mum always say im too stubborn... haha...

but one of the best thing is that i think all my weird pains are almost gone! my knee's been really good recently which means can run more (: today at least my arm hasn't protested more than usual and in fact its been pretty good... so yay (:

and its officially 8 weeks more.

and i still believe (:

"Pain? Yes, of course. Racing without pain is not racing. But the pleasure of being ahead outweighed the pain a million times over. To hell with the pain. What's six minutes of pain compared to the pain they're going to feel for the next six months or six decades. You never forget your wins and losses in this sport. YOU NEVER FORGET." -- Brad Alan Lewis from Assault on Lake Casitas

I know what its like to never forget. and i want to have something beautiful to rmb.

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