world of my own

The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood,
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
two roads diverged in a wood, and I --
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

*loves *

the colour orange
the sky and the water (:

Friday, April 20, 2007

went to the gym after school today. i don't like it when people go into the gym and talk more than they train. was quite sad cause i totally didn't have the strength to pull down (or push up) the weight. i think training with someone else really makes alot of difference. somehow its more painful trng alone.

today walked to school and headed straight for the table. surprise surprise. there was no one there. went to the pe dept and saw a few people. (: i must say that the t2 rowers have my respect. and their efforts have all been very inspiring.

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didn't do well for h3 CA2. i kinda expected it but still its rather disappointing. and i realize that i do want to do well for my h3. after all it IS an A level subject. the thing is it is in a few days and i have not started. hopefully if i focus and put everything into it in the next few days i can do well for it.

but then again, i realize wad you said was right. at the end of the day, it is not how well you know your bio stuff, how well you can recite the definitions of all the chemical terms or how you can calculate all the probability questions that shape who you are. at the end of the day, it is what you've been through and what you've learnt.

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today i went back for guides session for the FIRST TIME IN THIS WHOLE YEAR (not counting AA). a thousand apologies for the lack of my presence but i just couldn't get away previously.

and even after so many mths of absence and 1.5 yrs since i've officially ended my term, i still love guides.. alot alot. and muddy said this to us so now i'm saying it to all of you. "aspire to inspire before you expire" (:

there are still alot of things that i need to learn. like how to handle each group of them. how much to push, how much to encourage. when to be strict, when they need to be pulled along. this time, hopefully we'll come up with a good strategy...

sat outside the guides room, beside the guides table. one of my favourite spot. so many times we've sat there, talking. just talking about guides. i rmb avon n i used to be able to talk abt guides for an entire hour. and we can't seem to exhaust that topic. and then the sun slowly sets and the surroundings slowly becomes dark. and then i know i've gotta leave before i get caught in the after work jam.

hearing the news abt pga reminded me of how i heard about my own results. i can still picture the 3 of us, walking up the stairs of the D block to an empty classroom. crouched in front of the computer as we waited for the mail to be opened. we didn't move quickly but there was anticipation and nervousness in the air. and when the email opened, we just kept silent for almost one minute.

and then i looked. and i looked. and i rmb for a long time there was silence. and then that's when i broke down.

thinking back.. i think cherie n liling must have been shocked out of their wits. i know they called yiwen but i refused to talk to her then... kinda funny to think of it now. and then for a super long time i was just inconsolable. until after a while i rmbed to congratulate my fellow cls. (:

that was one long night.

it was only after that that i realized how much i wanted it. how it was the only thing i ever wanted. but like what the snr YAs have said... the award in the end, is the icing on the cake. through the process you've alrdy gained alot from it. n i guess for me, in the end, i realize i dint really need the award to know that i've grown n matured as an individual. or that ppl recognize me for who i am. and to me, the fact that guides recognized me was the best award i could ever get.

i hope my little jrns dont get too disappointed. they've all grown so much since they came in as little sec ones. since michelle eileen were in my patrol... since zhixian was in my psl class...

mhmm and as the years go by
mhmm i think of you and sigh
mhmm its just goodnight and not goodbye

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joo spoke
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